"Baby Lili!!"

We bought Lili some footie pajamas for the winter and she LOVES them!

As soon as she saw them in the store she squealed with delight and said "baby".
Now every time she wears them she runs around saying "baby Lili" and wants to be held and rocked.

So sweet, yet so sad. It's then that I realize that Lili hasn't always been 4. She wasn't born 4. She was a baby even if we'll never know her as a baby.

It's just so strange. We feel like she's been with us forever, but not since birth, more like she's just always been here and always been 4.

I still can't believe we'll never know what she was like as a baby. I still can't believe she lived all those years, all those moments without a family. And I really just cannot believe that she has so whole-heartedly left that all behind and embraced us.

We are her family. She is our daughter. This is her life. period. That seems to be good enough for her.

It amazes me still that she even accepts this.....us.....at all.

We are all so blessed.